Is turning away from God and act of suicide? Are you cutting yourself off from the living God?
“But for those who are self-seeking and who reject the truth and follow evil, there will be wrath and anger.” Romans 2:8
What pulls you away? Take note of this flesh pull, submit to God and put up resistance.
“Do not turn away after useless idols. They can do you no good, nor can they rescue you, because they are useless.” 1 Samuel 12:21
“Therefore submit to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you. Draw near to God and He will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, you sinners; and purify your hearts, you double-minded. Lament and mourn and weep! Let your laughter be turned to mourning and your joy to gloom. Humble yourselves in the sight of the Lord, and He will lift you up.” James 4:7-10