Do you want to be used by God to glorify Him? If this is not in your heart, then you can pray that the Lord will change your heart. “Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right spirit within me.” Psalm 51:10
Remember, “if you remain completely silent at this time, relief and deliverance will arise…. from another place….. Yet who knows whether you have come to the kingdom for such a time as this?” Esther 4:14