A loss can cause heaviness of heart. It can make you feel as if time has stopped. Your heart and mind struggle to reconcile what has happened and it appears not real.
The LORD is with you and is carrying you right now. Be intentional in staying close to the Lord. Bring all your questions to Him. Ask for his strength and for Him to heal your heart and bind up the wounds.
“My soul melteth for heaviness: strengthen thou me according unto thy word.” Psalm 119:28