Traumatic events in our lives can make us afraid of change. The shock of events of how things should be and what we experience create a conflict between our minds and heart.

I have had many traumatic events that have occurred: I have seen a murder of a mob boss in the streets of Philly, house burn to the ground, I have run over my dog with a car, my father died of Lou Gerigs disease, my husband was killed in the Navy Yard shooting and some more personal experiences that no one should have to bare. My heart and mind could not process the pain. As a result, I pushed them all down and created a self-defence mechanism. Each of these events caused a change in my life? Caused my heart to harden and not feel. Caused sickness in my life.

When my husband died I was numb and determined to push the pain down again. Yet, the jar was filled. I couldn’t stuff the death of my husband down and it manifested physically (CPTSD). When we don’t give the pain to God, the pain on the inside will come out. In essence, what we are doing is self-protecting. Self protection is a sin. God is our protector.

“The Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer; My God, my strength, in whom I will trust; My shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold. Psalm 18:2 NKJV

In order to break the chain of self-protection. we need to trust the Lord with all our heart, soul and mind. We need to receive His love. We need to open ourselves up for him to heal us. Don’t fear change.

For God says, “For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.” Jer 29:11 NKJV

“And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.” Romans 8:28 KJV